now!

i jus said yesterday tti enjoy my lifestyle right now, right? Today jus happen some things both made me cry...1 is felicia saying things, intentionally or not, tt made me stress and angry and i let it out by crying infront of some PLC ppl. wanted tok 2 jy bout it but she say she noe, but i jus wan to let the steam out, looks like i jus need to swallow it seeing when i will vomit it all out!(WA~! EWW PHRASING)Another thing is involving of course my home...morning, mama 不知道为什么开始发脾气，念念didi...过了一天就把气转移到我身上，好难过哦。。我没有故意让他有理由骂我，第一首歌也是因为他我才听的。jus feeling sad sad, wan say or write, but my black book no space so write here...really should not let 'he' noe im happy, cos jus 1 day, he can take it all away..hahah@.@...haixz...

目前。。

kinda enjoying th pace of my lifestyle right now. time can b said to b evenly spread around. Class, remedial, meet-out with friends to do work and joke around, go home and slack till go sleep... i really do hope tt all the bad emotions will go away. 人的七情六欲不会缠上我。毕竟只要有颗纯白无邪的心，才会得到快乐，平静。

Everything on my mind now

is it jus me, or the day is real dark....not only tat bastard n bitch came, i found tat i really hv no place in the troop. but i should already noe tat as a fact. My presence in the troop is only a pure waste. really tired of scouts liao, how to let it all go???
Also, noticing the new toys around the ppl i noe seems weird...not sure of wad i wan. ‘好奇’或者是‘吃不到葡萄，说葡萄酸’？I really don wan to become tt kind of person. Ruining my good day, r u happy? FUCKING SOAB!!!! ltw (writing e full name make feel real disgusted!!)

Digi Scan

hehe...i am SO delighted!! I've already finish 4 seasons of Digimon...Adventure 1 & 2, Tamers and Frontier. Wow, i can jus start writing their stories right now. But still control the urge is KEY! there is the knowledge, sincerity, love, courage, light, hope, kindness, reliability and friendship for the adventure part. then 金，木，水，火，土，风，雷，电，冰 n 暗。
oh no! loving digimon....gg on to Data Squad...ok then...

messy!

不知道为什么最近常常想起一些很不愉快的过去。我以前所做错的事情一件件的浮现在我的脑海里，想逃也逃不了。是不是有什么事将要发生？心情也是起伏不定。。我真的好乱哦！

I am losing it...Im no longer strong as i thought...still comparing myself with others, who am i 2 do so?! Is scout losing me or is it me losing scout?? i am very tired...i do not hv the ability 2 control and focus...wad happen 2day made me sure of tis decision. My rank...hahah...wad a laugh...i am not born 2 do tis i guess. Im still the same old me, sitting alone in the linkway waiting and hoping ppl will take notice of me, saying sth to me, but i am still the one tt say i wan 2 be alone...ke bei...
''U need 2 treat someone like how u wanted them 2 treat u...'' JOKE! guess i am tired of everything...the useless ranks, the names, the responsibility, the ppl, scout...I JUS WAN TO LEAVE ALL TIS BEHIND...i dont wan it

don ever think bad about a person! when u us start, it will be really hard to work with them...onli then life gets in ur way cos ur heart is