mi

today, i did a lot of things i now regret...flaring up my temper is the main one. tooo tired from tues ba, i wanted to cry liao, but tahan until now, so all burst...sorry to all those who got pulled in cos my poor control. i brought my fire to scout is already bad enough, i brought it home as well....SRY!!

S.A.C.

今天在数学班时不停的想起当年参加SEA Games在马来西亚的经验。想到偷拿Zerlynn的Gameboy, Nelson Wee 当我们的保姆，一堆女生挤在一个浴缸内泡澡，购物，Pumpkin替我追回我忘在巴士上的护照。。。都蛮经典的回忆呢。不过到了现在也只可以回味着，不是吗？！
我想我也不愿意也不可以把它拿来跟童子军替我创造的回忆与经验来交换吧。人只能往前看咯！！！

简单，不简单

‘别人说的话，随便听一听，自己做决定’对我来说应该蛮难的吧。我似乎是很容易被身边人的言语来被左右的。像老母说Rainer的事一样，我会开始有幻想，不过一切真的是没用啦。可能是想恋情吧。。。可悲哦。。。没关系，我相信时间一到，我的亲爱的会出现。毕竟是人生过程吗。

好坏之人

现在从我家窗口望出去，是一片快要下大雨的天空，一边听‘全世界都停了电’。。超有feel的。看过这么多部的偶像剧，好人坏人看了也不少。一直觉得我应该是好人，不过我想现实当中我也许是坏人吧？！真不想当呢！！真是负面的感觉，不爽！只好加油证明我至少在我的生活圈子里，我至少是好人咯。。。哈哈。。。

mei's birthday today!! really wish her a happy 10th bdae!!

choices left..

my paths crossed again...mgs & swimming life is my sensitive spot. frm swimmer 2 runner...
~MGS to YCSS
~Swimming to Scouts
but i have 2 say tt my sec. life is much happier compared 2 my primary sch life...no doubt bout tt...but a branded life n neighbourhood life is really different...sometimes i think is my choice correct, or mark my biggest mistake in my life? hoping i will not regret my choice now, cos it is really too late, might as well enjoy it then, RIGHT?!
hoping 2 stay happy...

now!

i jus said yesterday tti enjoy my lifestyle right now, right? Today jus happen some things both made me cry...1 is felicia saying things, intentionally or not, tt made me stress and angry and i let it out by crying infront of some PLC ppl. wanted tok 2 jy bout it but she say she noe, but i jus wan to let the steam out, looks like i jus need to swallow it seeing when i will vomit it all out!(WA~! EWW PHRASING)Another thing is involving of course my home...morning, mama 不知道为什么开始发脾气，念念didi...过了一天就把气转移到我身上，好难过哦。。我没有故意让他有理由骂我，第一首歌也是因为他我才听的。jus feeling sad sad, wan say or write, but my black book no space so write here...really should not let 'he' noe im happy, cos jus 1 day, he can take it all away..hahah@.@...haixz...

目前。。

kinda enjoying th pace of my lifestyle right now. time can b said to b evenly spread around. Class, remedial, meet-out with friends to do work and joke around, go home and slack till go sleep... i really do hope tt all the bad emotions will go away. 人的七情六欲不会缠上我。毕竟只要有颗纯白无邪的心，才会得到快乐，平静。

Everything on my mind now

is it jus me, or the day is real dark....not only tat bastard n bitch came, i found tat i really hv no place in the troop. but i should already noe tat as a fact. My presence in the troop is only a pure waste. really tired of scouts liao, how to let it all go???
Also, noticing the new toys around the ppl i noe seems weird...not sure of wad i wan. ‘好奇’或者是‘吃不到葡萄，说葡萄酸’？I really don wan to become tt kind of person. Ruining my good day, r u happy? FUCKING SOAB!!!! ltw (writing e full name make feel real disgusted!!)

Digi Scan

hehe...i am SO delighted!! I've already finish 4 seasons of Digimon...Adventure 1 & 2, Tamers and Frontier. Wow, i can jus start writing their stories right now. But still control the urge is KEY! there is the knowledge, sincerity, love, courage, light, hope, kindness, reliability and friendship for the adventure part. then 金，木，水，火，土，风，雷，电，冰 n 暗。
oh no! loving digimon....gg on to Data Squad...ok then...

messy!

不知道为什么最近常常想起一些很不愉快的过去。我以前所做错的事情一件件的浮现在我的脑海里，想逃也逃不了。是不是有什么事将要发生？心情也是起伏不定。。我真的好乱哦！

I am losing it...Im no longer strong as i thought...still comparing myself with others, who am i 2 do so?! Is scout losing me or is it me losing scout?? i am very tired...i do not hv the ability 2 control and focus...wad happen 2day made me sure of tis decision. My rank...hahah...wad a laugh...i am not born 2 do tis i guess. Im still the same old me, sitting alone in the linkway waiting and hoping ppl will take notice of me, saying sth to me, but i am still the one tt say i wan 2 be alone...ke bei...
''U need 2 treat someone like how u wanted them 2 treat u...'' JOKE! guess i am tired of everything...the useless ranks, the names, the responsibility, the ppl, scout...I JUS WAN TO LEAVE ALL TIS BEHIND...i dont wan it

don ever think bad about a person! when u us start, it will be really hard to work with them...onli then life gets in ur way cos ur heart is