Hoping this day will end soon....

This year birthday is rather 'unforgettable'. Got cheated by Charlene & Low Jia Yuan. Bluff me say Charlene not coming to KTV cause dhe wants revenge for last year matter but ended up at Chervon 1st floor blowing balloons inside got star star to surprise me. Made me cry for no bloody reason sia. But when I reached home still got something same as last year: my mom saying ' whats so big deal about your bithday, made everyone suffer...' Very sad la, but nvm la...decided on no point of wasting $ and ended up no one enjoyed. Also found out that my grandmother felt sad that I never invite her go, now that I think about it, I HATE myself for forgetting such a important person of my life. I really can feel the pain that she feels when she was alone at home with not able to celebrate with me. I SUX! How can I do that to her! Really wish time will move back, and let me not hurt anyone in my life. I cant stand this me who is so selfish and useless...really...I cant bear to hurt her anymore. How can I FORGET?!