I finally felt it!

I was feeling 'why' the main 'Gong Zhu Bang' people hate JY so much when I was still with her, but now I can finally feel it! Guess that I also hate JY lor. But just surprise that I will actually have a day to hate her lyke that, haha...Guess I now start to noe myself better since I meditated, whooo...But I should now be used to it liao lo, so I shall wait for my next stop for more ppl to come into my life! Waiting....

Today!

Found a bad point of a PL and that is must sms alot and some members dont have or dont want give me hp, cause me to call their home! heh...today is detention for me lo cause late for school on fri. and cant run cause sprained ankle, so it is two hours spend in there and missed maths remedial! And inside I the only girl sia and most non-chinese, sian. Too sian liao, so decided to take nap but end up kanna scolded by Ah Voon. ABCD! But still free at 3.30, not much difference from out from prison sia, haha. Later alone go library return and borrowed books. 1 is 'The Powers To Lead' , want to become the of me in scouts cause that is so far only way that I can prove something lor, so I will try to do good! Of course cannot forget to borrow 'xiao shuo' lo.
Thats all...

Promotion! ~.~

Yesterday is scout promotion day! I got 3 ranks sia! Though very happy, but also very stress sia, no joke noe! 1st is zi qian's pioneering AIC, 2nd is QM and lastly is the PL for patrol A. I really wanted to change to other patrol sia, cause already stay in patrol A for very long liao, so want to go somewhere else. But since my fate is already like that, so no choice lo.

My members are:

~Wei Jie

~Dawn

~Ming Xuan

~Haja

~Wen Wei

~Ernest (APL)

Just gone up to be QM yesterday but got punishment right away. Cause I never ask Zi Qian and Yan Zhi to take off their shoes when they gone in the Scout Room. Sian sia...heh...what good days will in store for me, I really dont dare to expect too much. So WISH ME GOOD LUCK!

Complicated...

Getting super emo lately...heh...maybe too into moon and sun. But also don noe how to put it la. Just found out that moon and sun tution together. No biggy, think just feeling bit left out, but prob. is i walked out myself, so just complicated! But according to my primary school life, i should already be used to loneliness but i still feel sad...really dont noe wad i thinking sia...hope i can soon understand myself...

My Home!

What is the TRUE meaning of home? A place to sleep and eat? A place that is filled with people that concerns and love you? Someplace that you are able to finally strip your mask you wear outside and be your ture self? A place that you are able to hide when you a feeling down and alone? The place that you wish tou are always in? My home is all that! But its really a big MESS! So I am determined to clean my house up 2moro! Nothing going to change that....

This Sat. got archery, quite excited sia, heheh...although not 1st time. Got do before when I was in MGS, but I am sure that those rich brats cant hold a candle to my Cougar scouts! v.v heheh....waiting for that day 2 come!

我是爱哭包！

我承认，我真的超容易也超爱哭的哦！如果想把我最近所哭出来的泪装起来，肯能可以fill-up正个reservoir。我能哭的点真的数也数不清呀。像：家庭，朋友，偶像剧，被欺负，好玩，emo...爱哭的我，该喝少一点水，这样想哭也哭不出来啦！厉害吧！哈哈哈哈。。。太阳，星星与月亮是我们的记号!

Hoping this day will end soon....

This year birthday is rather 'unforgettable'. Got cheated by Charlene & Low Jia Yuan. Bluff me say Charlene not coming to KTV cause dhe wants revenge for last year matter but ended up at Chervon 1st floor blowing balloons inside got star star to surprise me. Made me cry for no bloody reason sia. But when I reached home still got something same as last year: my mom saying ' whats so big deal about your bithday, made everyone suffer...' Very sad la, but nvm la...decided on no point of wasting $ and ended up no one enjoyed. Also found out that my grandmother felt sad that I never invite her go, now that I think about it, I HATE myself for forgetting such a important person of my life. I really can feel the pain that she feels when she was alone at home with not able to celebrate with me. I SUX! How can I do that to her! Really wish time will move back, and let me not hurt anyone in my life. I cant stand this me who is so selfish and useless...really...I cant bear to hurt her anymore. How can I FORGET?!

Funny vid. I took in Jinan!

They are singing 中国话。And the 1st gal is another freak just that in china version! But why must Ryan come and 抢镜头！？